You have tried so hard to avoid yourself
But every day is a million breaths reminding you,
How much you have failed…
Deep in the mind .. roaring like a dilapidated lawn mower.
The id is cutting out peaces of you…
replacing them, with peaces of YOU…
like blades of grass in the wind on a summer day
blown from connection to the earth
to be fertilizer for birth
of a new fool, planting roots in the corner of darkness, sprouting green to feed
the hungry caterpillars
greedily, devouring.
You have tried so hard to avoid yourself
But everyday is a million breaths reminding you,
How much you have failed.
Knifes in the stomach..
Pains in the chest..
Obsessing thoughts .. plural desires..
Uncomfortable fantasies leak in your mind…
Religions and psychologies..janitors of a kind
Mopping up the juices, removed from the rind.
SCREAM!!!!!
SCREAM!!!!!
There is no acceptable solution
No plausible belief
That leaves you being
Who you feel you should be.
There is pressure to accept
What is defined and attributed
But you redefine everything
Leaving you empty and isolated.
Where do you walk when every where is lonely,
And You have tried so hard to avoid yourself
but every day is a million sharp breaths, reminding you,
Just how much you have failed…
ineffablemrjones 
This is great:
“There is no acceptable solution
No plausible belief
That leaves you being
Who you feel you should be.
There is pressure to accept
What is defined and attributed
But you redefine everything
Leaving you empty and isolated.”
thank you.. I am glad you liked it but hope you have never had to feel it.
Actually I do feel it…
Or, to put it in a “better” way, hadn´t it felt it, I wouldn´t have recognized it in your lines.
then I am deeply sorry that you have felt it but appreciate your visit …
I love it, but I think we have all felt this at some point in time or another… but the question is… do we stay there, empty & isolated, or do you move on…. learning from previous lessons life has put before us. (But I could be way off base cuz my mind in scrambled right now :D… )
Beautiful
Hi fellow poet, this feeling is familiar. In the end, some people will always be lonely at the core. But I am still hopeful it isn’t so.
Ah, the human condition – intriguing. Thanks for the visit and ‘like’ … looking forward to more words.
Wow. Those repeated lines (And You have tried so hard to avoid yourself/but every day is a million sharp breaths, reminding you,/Just how much you have failed) were like a blow to the stomach. So powerful, and so identifiable, for me at least. Wonderful poem, however sad a place it comes from.
beautiful,personal,and unanimous.I really enjoyed reading your work.
thank you so much… let me know what you think about my latest.. just posted it a few minutes ago
Great poem but the hook “But everyday is a million breaths reminding you” is absolute genius
thanks, man! I appreciate that.
Very good. Great spirit.
You
What I meant to write is:
You’ve been nominated.
http://dlightfullpoetry.wordpress.com/2013/03/26/inspiring-blogger-award/
thank you very much for this nomination. I checked out your site a little.. It says you are a spoken word artist. Where do you perform? This is something I would like to do more.. at least read my stuff but I don’t know how to get started.
No problem. I like your blog. I am a spoken word artist. I perform at slams and gigs.
I’d say the best thing to do is first attend a slam or open mic session. And then perform at open mics.
where do you perform? What City?
Montreal, Ottawa, sometime Boston. I’m trying to get into Toronto and New York.
right on! I am in Tucson. It’s hard to find anything to do here and my poetry though raw is not the type of stuff that normally goes over well at a slam. So I feel stuck with where to perform or read.
AZ. Oh wow. I can see how that would make it harder though a completely prejudiced statement since I know nothing about AZ. Don’t let rules limit what you perform or read though. And get out. Travel a bit. Go to cities that might be more welcoming to your style. Or create your own slam group. Find people who share your tastes, a large group of people. And keep doing what you do.
thanks .. I will try to see what I can do.
This really captures it (I’ve felt it)! Wow!
Just brilliant… 🙂 …and sad. 😦
thanks for reading… there are some other good ones in there. Hope you take the time to read them all
I love the chant of the “million breaths” in this poem. It’s gorgeous. Thank you for sharing!
thanks for reading… feel free to check out the rest there are some others that are similar to this… sort of…
How sad this is……
breathtakingly beautiful poem. Keep ’em coming !
If you let the past overcome today it’s a slow death.
great words
Often alone, I am never lonely;
my conscience too follows, only
the anesthesia of useful work
can stupefy any demons that lurk…
“Where do you walk when everywhere is lonely”…beautiful brave human speaking here….and *thank you* for the “like” at my place:)
I meant the human you, not the human me:)
It’s not so much that i like this, although i did. It’s so dark. i want to stop reading,but I can’t , because you have me hanging on each line.
Talent!
real nuanced about the theme. Real deep, thank you very much
Thank you for stopping by my blog and liking my latest post! We all feel this way at some point in our lives, but the determining factor as to whether we fail or succeed is what we choose to focus on. Do we choose to focus on our failures and live in the past or do we dare to believe that somewhere out there in that dreaded sea of impossibility, is a job that exists that only we can do. Strong work!
Well done …. filled with emotion