I can’t feel anything…
I’ve gone numb.
Leprosy of the soul.. I am crying but I don’t know why
I miss something but I don’t know what.
It’s building and growing.
It hurts more each day
But I don’t understand why.
It’s a longing
A desire for something or someone
It’s a reason or a purpose beyond what I do
It’s something with in me
Beyond what I can see
It’s in the ethereal amongst the stars
It’s in space beyond mars
It’s something more then all this
More then our days
I am longing for reason
Longing for completeness
Longing to be whole in the universe.
There is no comfort here.
There is nothing that I can achieve to fulfill this feeling.
I am searching for something that does not exist.
I can not grasp an ideal
I can not hold on to a dream
I can not hold love or meaning or understanding..
I am searching for something that others seem to hold
But I am not satisfied with…..
I am crying.. because it hurts.. it hurts my brain.. it hurts my body…
Knowing there is no answer to quench my thirst…….